Taciturnly » mother http://taciturnly.com inclined to silence Mon, 19 Jul 2010 11:19:24 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 a little bit baby http://taciturnly.com/2009/07/a-little-bit-baby http://taciturnly.com/2009/07/a-little-bit-baby#comments Tue, 14 Jul 2009 11:47:21 +0000 elle http://taciturnly.com/?p=65
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    • ]]>     To continue on from my last post and my want to be a wife. My other want from life? To be a mother. Yes I’d like to be a wife and mother, and I’m sorry if that makes me some lame traditional girl, rather than a career focused feminist.
    I’ve been babysitting since I was about 13, helped in a 2-5 creche for about 5 years, used to babysit with my friend 17 kids ranging from 0-10 when their folks had a bible study and was a leader in Girls Brigade in a few years. I grew up in a church family community, in that environment kids were around constantly and allowed to play and hover by themselves for a few hours a week. (in a gated yard but it was kids kids kids, with parents drinking coffee looking out the windows.) So I’ve been around kids all my life, even when I was a kid I was the one hugging the babies and carrying them when I was barely bigger than them, then I became the preteen who was good with kids and could be trusted to look after them. Now? I’m the twenty year old with the nearly three year old kinda step-kid. And, I’m also the twenty year old who can’t wait to be a mother in my own right.
    I want to finish university, and be married. I also, want to be a young mother. Any time I’ve mentioned this, I get the “you have years to have babies”, I realise this that doesn’t change my want to be a mother. Truthfully, that insinuates I’m too immature to be a mother, and well as humbly as I can, I disagree.

    It’s really quite hard to watch the person you love already be a parent, especially when being a parent is something you want a lot. The little one can calm my want to be a parent, as well as irritate, smooth, upset it. It’s something I deal with everyday, and though I would not give her or my relationship with her up with for a second, the “pain” of him being a parent, while I’m not, is something I wish would just leave for a week out the month, just to give me a break. Do you know how hard it is to wait for all your “ducks to be in a row” for something that one of the people in the relationship has? The joys of being the second…

    I can’t wait to be a mum, it may sound lame. It’s just something I’ve wanted my whole life, and something I can not wait for the ‘okay’….

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