Even with the healthy food kick, and not counting calories I’m already struggling with issues of my past. It’s much easier to skip breakfast, to eat low cal soup for lunch, and steamed vegetables for tea. It’s a hard, and embarrassing place to be.

I was trolling Tumblr, when I came across this quote from the beautiful, talented Sophia Bush.

“Life is too short, and I’m Italian. I’d much rather eat pasta and drink wine than be a size 0.” – Sophia Bush

She is beautiful, hot and has given me the strength to face my issues and fight them for a little bit longer.

In fact, tomorrow I will not be afraid of bread, or not eat food because I can’t check packaging and find out the calorie amount, as long as I’m hungry and it’s healthy I will eat it. (And my mind is already screaming and fighting that plan for tomorrow.)

Ever since I had that extended break from blogging, I’ve struggled to get back into it. That and I also seemed to have lost some readers which is a little discouraging.
It also shows me that there are still things I don’t blog about, I’m not sure if it’s because I’m nervous to or because real life friends and family read the blog, and even really close online friends.
I have a few blogs posts I have written up in my mind, “gender neutral” parents, my new HP Mini netbook, and the fact I have a lack of healthy vegetarian recipes.

Eight days ago I blogged about trying to eat healthy and use the Wii Fit to lose some weight. Surprisingly I have, I’ve lost about 2 kilos. The Wii tracking my BMI/Weight has definitely held me accountable, and it was super easy to turn down HUGE cupcakes at work in exchange for my yummy apple puree. (I know it’s basically baby food but it’s like the best tasting thing in the world ever.) However, those times I do eat something naughty (hot chips at the football) I have such a hard time letting it go. I think about it for the whole day, and tend to eat a lot less the next day.

I have three essays which totals at 4500 words due in the next two weeks, so I guess I’ll disappear again for a while.

As I’ve gone into on previous blog posts I have some issue with my eating habits, since I have gotten a desk job I have gained some weight. I sit at my desk, where I used to not sit down at all during my previous job.
The issue I have is when I start to “diet,” I go the extreme and within a week I struggle with not consuming enough calories.
Instead, I have made the choose not to count calories, and rather just make healthier choices. (As in I take Apple Puree instead of falling victim to the horror of vending machines.)
It’s very hard for me not to count calories, it’s an automatic thing for me, when I pick up something I work out how many calories it is. It’s not something I do on purpose, but rather just something I do unconsciously.
I realise not counting calories will make it much harder for me to loss weight, so I’ve also decide to start doing proper exercise. Just to show how serious I am about it, I went and bought exercise shorts and tops.

My first step is using our Wii Fit and do the Couch to 5 kilometre program. I have started using the Wii Fit and I’m loving it. I can actually do a prone hold for 30 seconds, and according to the Wii Fit I hold it fairly steady.
I will start the Couch to 5K when I can work out when I am able to do it without running in the dark….

Basically, I need to lose 7 kilograms. I’m aiming for two to three months, it may be a long deadline but I’m not sticking to a calorie based diet, and only increasing my exercise from zero to something.

I always have girl crushes, I crush on celebrities and people I know in real life. I cannot help it, I’ll happily admit when females are attractive and if they are lovely and sweet then they have me won. They don’t have to be hot, or young, just lovely and attractive. If they are celebrities then I will watch anything they are in, and squeal when I see them. I get influenced by the persona of their character, if they play someone who is sweet and has attitude then’ll love the actress.
My lovely blog readers, do you have girl celebrity crushes? I wanna hear them all, especially if you’re also a female!

1. & 2. Jayma Mays from Glee, she has such a sweet face and I love her character on Glee.
3. & 4. Sophia Bush from One Tree Hill. OMFG I LOVE HER, she’s hot, her character is confident and sassy. She’s a firm believer in that zero is not a size. She has this sexy husky voice and a figure to die for. I just love love her. I crush most on her. <3
3. & 4. Kristin Chenoweth from West Wing, Pushing Daises and guest starred on Glee. She’s so pretty, and hot, she’s a great actress. The three roles I listed shows she can successfully play any character, and man, that girl can sing.
5. & 6. Sasha Gray from, well, Google her (NSFW).
7. & 8. Dianna Agron from Glee. Similar reasons as to why I like Kristin, she can sing, and she’s really cute.
9. & 10. Lauren Graham from Gilmore Girls, I love this show, her character had so much attitude and she was such a smart alec. She’s hot, hot, hot. When she dated Matthew Perry I nearly died from cuteness.
11. & 12. Alyson Hannigan from Buffy and How I Met Your Mother. Have you seen her? She is hot, and so pretty. I love her, I love her cos she plays awesome characters, I love that she’s worked with both Joss Whedon and Neil Patrick Harris, that she has done episodes that have the characters break out into song but only has one line in them because she hates to sing, and how sweet she is on Twitter and her awesome she is as a mummy.
13. & 14. Lisa Goldstein from One Tree Hill. She’s the latest on my list, she’s meant to be the “unpretty” one on the show but omg she is pretty. It’s the first real thing she’s acted on, and they’ve taken her character on a rollercoaster and she’s nailing it. I’m looking forward to seeing her in more.

After watching a great documentary  about some movies that were made and released in 1999. The boy made up a list of what he considers the best movies of 1999.

• American Beauty
• American Pie
• Arlington Road
• Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me
• Being John Malkovich
• Blair Witch Project
• Boondock Saints
• Boys Don’t Cry
• But I’m a Cheerleader
• Election
• Eyes Wide Shut
• eXistenZ
• Fight Club
• Ghost Dog: The Way of the Samurai
• Girl, Interrupted
• Go
• Hurricane
• Iron Giant
• Magnolia
• Man on the Moon
• Mansfield Park
• The Matrix
• The Mummy
• Notting Hill
• Office Space
• The Phantom Menace
• Run Lola Run
• Rushmore
• Sixth Sense
• Sleepy Hollow
• South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut
• Talented Mr. Ripley
• Thin Red Line
• Three Kings
• Todo sobre mi madre
• Toy Story 2
• Virgin Suicides

I’ve only seen American Pie, The Matrix, The Mummy, Notting Hill, Run Lola Run, Sixth Sense, and Toy Story 2, much to the boys horror. Granted I was only 10 in 1999 but there are many movies I should have seen.
I’ve decided I’m going to start watching these movies. I’m amused that I already have opinions about these movies I’ve never seen before.
Today despite my hatred for Angelina Jolie, we’ve started to watch Girl, Interrupted.

I’m loving the movie, as much as I hate Jolie. She’s bat shit insane, and that makes her perfect for this role. (Sorry for insulting all the Angelina Jolie fans.)

Next I’d like to watch “But I’m a Cheerleader” and “Virgin Suicides“. What are your must watch and do not watch from the list?